Hello let me start off by introducing myself; my name is Karen, I am 20 years old and I placed my new born for adoption.
For me going through with this adoption was probably the hardest thing I had to do in my life. The reason for this was because I have always dreamed about having a daughter and what it would be like to dress her, play with her and give her the mother daughter relationship I was never able to share with my mother. I also am a single mother and was barely providing for my son who is one year old and who I love with all my heart.
One of my biggest fears was that my daughter was going to hate me when she was older but I hoped the family was going to make her happy and give her a good life. Thanks to AdoptHelp I got to meet the adoptive parents, they turned out to be a great family and I know my daughter is in good hands. In fact the adoptive parents took me to all the doctor appointments and they were there for the delivery.
I believe that the hardest part for me was saying goodbye. When I first laid eyes on my daughter I cried. I kissed her head and asked her to forgive me. At that time I wanted to get off the hospital bed and run out with her to start a new life but then reality hit me. It was time for my goodbyes and time for her to go with her new family to start her life. And it was time for me to be strong and think of my daughter. I could not put her through the pain I live in. I said goodbye, not forever but just for now.
It is now two weeks since I placed my baby for adoption. Yes I do miss her terribly but there is no doubt in my mind that what I did was the best thing to do.