Hello. My name is Crystal. I want to start this off by telling you that you are not alone in what you are going through. I too found myself facing an unplanned pregnancy. Alone and scared I would cry myself to sleep at night wondering why and how this could have happened to me. What was I going to do? This only happened to other people.
I thought briefly of ending the pregnancy. But see I’m a mother of a perfect little girl, so the thought of ending this baby’s life was unbearable. That’s when I contacted AdoptHelp. Everyone was so easy to talk to and through them I met the two most wonderful men I know.
Each person will feel very different things when it comes time to decide what kind of adoption they want, open or closed. I chose to go with an open adoption. At the time of me writing this it has only been 2 weeks since I placed my daughter for adoption. I am working through my pain now and working on starting my life over. I still cry a lot, but when I think of the gift I gave these wonderful people it makes it worth it in a way.
The one thing I can tell you and I know this for a fact is it does get better. It stops hurting so much and eventually you stop getting angry for not thinking of your child every single minute of every single day. You begin to remember why you did it and you also stop hating yourself through the pain. I know this because when I was 18 years old (6 years ago) I placed my first born son for adoption.
You have to remind yourself that you are not a bad person. In fact, you are a greater person for taking the bumpy road rather than the smooth and easy one. What you are doing is the most courageous and selfless thing a person can do. Not only are you giving yourself the chance to start over, you’re giving your baby the chance to have the kind of life that you wish you could give them but know you can’t at this point in your life. And last but not least, you are giving two people (or one person) who cannot give themselves the most precious gift, the gift of life … a Family.
I want you to know I understand what you are going through. I know it’s not easy and even though I don’t know you, I want you to know that you have a friend for life in me. If you ever need to talk or need a shoulder to cry on, I’m only a phone call away. Just call AdoptHelp and they will make sure we get in contact with each other.